It’s been a strange world lately. Like the stars are misaligned. Still okay though. I don’t run to the cupboard or the fridge for solace on this time of frustration and I don’t knows. New bosses, new colleagues, major firings and not knowing if you are the next on that revolving door list. My solace is with my dogs, but they must be feeling my stress when it kicks in, because for the first time in two months when I first moved into my new place, baby has been messing daily. She never did before. And my car is blowing out gas like there is no tomorrow… so kind of like me.. lol. Stress bloats and gas.
I miss my blogging. I have been so busy trying to save my job that I forgot that this place is .. yes.. solace. Always brought me piece even when I was in the most stressful moments of my life.
I really wish I could share more about my disarray, but if I linked it to any site I would be found out. I tend not to like that. I like my followers to find me, but not the people I don’t want to have follow me. Does this make sense?
Conundrum, frustration, uneasiness in my stomach, but through this, I reached out.. not with food!! But with phone calls to my new front end people. I have friend who equally wants to share her stories. They are more about women getting out of the trenches. She doesn’t like the front line idea. I do. I fight front line everyday. She said that is negative and that we can come to just working smart not fighting. I agree to disagree. My lifestyle as a recovered bulimic is one where I have to be at the front line but with a white flag. Surrender, but do it with pride and dignity. Front line, I deal with customers. They are always right so to speak. When not, and in my head, I just wave the flag and discuss the issue. I am front line. I am customer service. I will love my customers, and even those who cause my blood pressure to rise because they have to involve upper management. I am a survivor. And in fairness… so many of my customers to me are gold for those 2% that may not be. It is why I wake up to see them every day. In this revolving door, I don’t want the exit.
I know what it feels like to fight defeat. I AM A RECOVERED BULIMIC. WE KNOW THE FIGHT. MORE SO THAN ANY NORMAL PERSON.
Amazing, and God sent lesson.
Recover and you will know what true recovery feels like. Beautiful. And it’s never too early (better plan) but better yet to know… never too late!!
